Monday, February 8, 2010

That was Fast...get it?

{earl grey with milk and the best honey I've ever tasted...thank you beegirl.}
Well, it's been a week. And the Fast is over. I can't believe it's been a week already! I went a whole week with no caffeine. No coffee. No diet soda. No sugar. No bread. I survived on quesadillas and soup and salad and avocados. Not a bad way to fast, I'll have to admit. I wasn't starving, that's for sure. Yeah...it would have been nice to have some toast with peanut butter and honey. Or a bagel and cream cheese. Both are very quick to whip up...which is nice when you are hungry. It would have been really nice to have some sourdough with that spinach dip I served for yesterday's football food. But...I didn't. Instead I had some whole grain pita chips. And it was fine.
So...I'm not real sure what to think at this point. I'm not sure...yet...that this fast was as spiritual as I thought it was supposed to be. I was expecting more spiritual enlightenment. And maybe...if I weren't so hyper-focused on soda...it might have been? I know that it was enlightening in that I didn't realize I was dependent on soda. I know that I used to be. But I thought I was over it. I thought I had a handle on the soda consumption. And...in comparison to how I used to be, I do have a handle on it. But, it's also got a handle on me. So I need to be aware.
A friend of mine fasted at the beginning of the year. She did the Daniel Fast to a tee. And she said she asked God the whole time for a word...for truth...for an awakening. And all three weeks...nothing. But then the following weekend, as she was out on her run, God just poured into her new and amazing things. So...I'm not losing hope. It's not too late. It's NEVER too late.

But. Today. Today the fast is over. And yes, I am enjoying a cup of coffee. A cup and a half actually. And it's good. But I'm not as relieved as I thought I would be to have it. Which is good. I am glad that I won't get a headache at around 11am though...I won't miss that. I plan on having a diet soda with lunch today. I wonder if it will taste so delicious...or if it will taste like chemicals? I'll let you know...
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So what's going on today? I'm headed to the shop...and to lunch with my hubby. I'll do some paperwork and pay some bills...get some tax stuff ready. Then head home this afternoon...to do nothing this evening except make some dinner and read my homework text.
This week will be a bit busy...school tomorrow night. A meeting Wednesday night. Bible study Thursday night. Oh...and subbing at one of the local elementary schools on Thursday in their front office. I've subbed there once before and it was a great experience. The people are really nice. It's a nice way to spend a day while making about a hundred dollars. It would be nice if I could sub once a week or so while going to school...just for some grocery money.
And...I'm a little bummed about the Super Bowl. I wanted the Colts to win. I have liked the Colts since Tony Dungy was coach. And I like Peyton Manning. I'm not a big football kind of gal. But...I don't mind it. It's comforting to have it on in the background. I guess because my dad always watched football when I was growing up. So there's something about that sound that let's me know I'm safe. That all is well.
Time to start the day...xo

3 comments:

Mari said...

Michelle,
Glad you made it through the fast. So proud of you. And God will bless! I like the Colts too, for the reasons you mentioned...and not really a football fan in general.
Praying for you this week. On Thursday a friend and I are going to a luncheon to hear Lysa Terkeurst...can't wait!
Blessings!

Nancy said...

Thought of you this a.m. and almost sent you an email just to say that I hope you enjoy that DC with lunch today :0)

I was cheering for the Colts too but when I saw Drew Brees sharing the moment with his son - tears in his eyes, I knew it was a good thing that the Saints had won.

Amy @ Homestead Revival said...

Michelle, I've felt the same way after a fast before. What I ended up learning more than anything was how dependent I was on certain foods, etc. I haven't fasted as a regular course (but would someday like to do this a bit more often), but those that I know that do seem to "hear" better because their bodies have learned to go through this a bit better. Does that make ANY sense? I don't know how to word it really. I just know that the few times I've fasted, I've been so hungry that I had a hard time thinking about other things! Is that terrible of me? Also, it's about us being obedient and seeking God, not always about Him answering. I believe He will answer when you need to hear from Him and He wants you to know. Just keep seeking and watching even though the fast is over. He is always there!!

Thanks for your kind comments on my new blog. And yes, I had a HARD time keeping that a secret!! I wanted to spill the beans time and time again!